Recount before the anniversary

 

 

Image: Karim Adduchi

In this life I have seen many things and not all I have liked. Not everything I’ve touched has turned out well, sometimes I felt I had more flaws than virtues and I think, in my case, I am reminded of my mistakes more often than of the things I do well. It’s a shame to be so, but not always so.

I know I’m a person and I can be wrong as often as needed. During the time I have lived not only have I done and said things wrong but I have been mistaken with my own feelings.

Sometimes I did things against my own feelings but I’m back to my past, I wanted to go back to who I am, and this time I will do so well that I will not miss the opportunity that life is giving me.

This time I will create a lifelong relationship. She and I had been sweethearts since childhood that is why I have referred back to the past. All I’m saying is that this time I feel that I have the head and the heart in place. These feelings began to flourish twenty three years ago.

I am the happiest man in the world. Without her my life is not worth it. You have no idea what it means to me to be with the woman I have ever loved, I will ever love and never stopped loving. She has been with me for all these years and now more than ever.

I will turn forty next year. Soon I will change the number three for the number four. You do not know what this means to me.

If it was up to me, I would bring back all those people I have loved and sadly are no longer with us. We could celebrate my forty birthday together, but I know it cannot be, so I can only accept things as they are.

I do not know why I complain so much, because there are still people here that I love, both in my family and my in-laws. I know I can count on all of them and I also know I can count on my friends, whom I love. But especially I love Eva.

 

* Original text in catalan.

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